I live in a hut. A very small hut. When the wind blows, my hut will collapse, because it doesn't have strong enough foundation. When it rains, my hut will be fulled by water because I don't have hut with best roof. I live with my family in that small hut.
My family and I should stay in house with good roof and wall. But, we just can't afford it. Sometimes, I think God is unfair. Giving me a life in this small hut, with these poor people together. We even can't eat full three-time meal. We always share our meals. Worse, we get our meal from the dustbin. If we are lucky enough, we will get food which is still good.. but, we are rarely this lucky. We eat stale food almost all the time.
My family and I travel everywhere with bare foot and our dirty clothes. We can travel everywhere on our foot since we have strong feet to do so. We sing and laugh all the time. Because we don't know how to cry. For us, we are living a hard way to live already. So, it's useless to cry on. Since we don't know when our lives could change. Probably, we just cry when we lose one of our relatives or friends.
We don't cry because of hunger since we have trained to stand of it.
We don't cry because of homeless since we have trained to sleep and stay on the road side.
We have trained to live a hard life.
All days and nights, I wonder how it feels to live in a building called house. To sit inside four-wheel vehicle called car. To get inside a tall building called plaza. To wear beautiful clothes, shoes and carry a beautiful bag.
I wonder how it feels to be smiled to. Because people always pushed their face away from me and my relatives. To be welcomed, and to be served nicely.
That's why I said, God is unfair. Those people who live in a building called house, get every single thing I want to have. But, I don't get any.
I wonder how hard I try so that I can get all that.. Probably it will still only be a dream..
I live in this luxurious house. I got everything I want. I live in a room with air conditioner, so that I can turn it on when I am hot. I get TV in my room so that I can watch everything on it. I get music player so that I can play music when I am bored. I get so many entertainment things to entertain me. So that I will not get bored.
I travel everywhere by car. So that, I won't get hot when the sun shines brightly and won't get wet, when the rain comes.
I sleep on the best bed. I eat the best food. I wear the best clothes, shoes and carry the best bags. But, I get no love. My parents always busy looking for money. All of my friends get close to me when they need my money. Instead, when I need them, I don't know where they are going. I can't even find one of them to tell and share what I really feel.
That's why I said, God is unfair. He gives me everything that I don't really need. But, he doesn't give me the love I need.
He doesn't give me parents who will care for me and be there at home when I get home from school.
He doesn't give me friends who will be there for me whenever I need them. But He gives me friends who will just be there for me when I want to spend my money.
Deep inside my heart, I ask God,
What is this warm house for if I don't have a home?
What is this comfortable bed for if I don't feel comfortable?
What are these entertainments for if I can't enjoy them with all my love ones?
What is this luxurious car for, if I can't travel everywhere with my family?
Why God doesn't give me what I want to have?
Do all the people with these feel the way I feel?
I wonder how it feels to laugh together with all my friends and families
I don't need much..
I just need the thing called LOVE
People may not know that I always stare at the moon in a silent night..
And without my knowing, the tears just drop and wet my cheeks.
What they always know is I am a girl with everything served.
And that's the reason why I must be happy.
Because God has been so kind to me..
He has given me a rich family so that I can live in a luxurious house, riding a luxurious car..
Having all the things that every girl could want
They only see my skin..
They don't see what's inside..
They don't see what's inside..