Insomnia

At times I can't sleep. I have some periods in my life when I am too excited or too worried to sleep.

This first version is a "sweet burden": When I will travel somewhere, especially for a holiday or vacation I am all excited and even if I can sleep a little in my dreams I am already on the way going to the airport or driving my car. 

Not that sweet when I can't sleep because of the problems. At times my life is so busy that I just simply can't finish a day with a good feeling like: great, I have finished everything for today. I am laying in the bed and counting how many things I have unfinished. I didn't answer this or that e-mail or phonecall, I again forgot to pay the bills on time, I am closing the deadline with this work, I will face a serious conversation with this or that person. There is always a lot to worry about.

And I recognised that nighttime is always harder. Bad thoughts, worries and anxieties are coming rather in the evening. The dark side of the Moon.

Morning is easy. I wake up (because finally I always fall asleep) with full of energy and I do not find the very same problems being so serious. And usually I can solve some of them. Not all, because there is always something left for the next night.....to worry about.

I don't like that feeling...