After some research and observation I think I am about to make my final decision. I said I will come back someday but I think I won’t.
My Final decision
As I have said, I don’t want religions together with any organized church. I said before I will just take a short break and just see the difference to life being a non-churchgoer. Right now I am almost 2 years of without church attendance not even once. I guess I am one of those who does not miss the church life after all.
Now I finalized my decision and indeed I found some basis just as to why- not going to church can be the most spiritual thing I can do right now.‘
Here I found out quotations, excerpts from various internet sources about why most churches are not being effective anymore and why many churches are turning more and more complicated.
.....churches are ready-made launch pads for cults, given the necessary attitudes and individuals....
As I have mentioned before, religious people especially key leaders has a tendency to manipulate the church to gain status and instant supporters and followers all it takes is a charismatic appeal, celebrity appeal and gift of the gab and boom! You can now have a religious empire with millions of followers ready to support you in just a snap.
.....Jam 1:27 Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world....
Here if we want to be religious, the only solution given is to help those in need and try not to be corrupted with the sinfulness of the world. The church is not doing it, in fact many people are corrupt while being inside a church and many does not spend their time to help those in need, they always think about of how to win souls and invite more and more people to build mega churches exploding with church attendance with no real fellowship at all. They always want building funds to build huge churches with spires and spikes or giant domes with amazing facade.
.....(Jefferson Bethke‘s Video) So much truth in the video. Very sad. We finally stopped going to the "business church, social club church" and honestly can say we do not miss it.....
Very true, as I have been there, I see it does turned into more of a business organization, social club, elitist club, and the we-and-them, we-and-you syndrome exist before church commitees and the ordinary followers. Many plain attendees does not really know they just have to follow programs as stamped by key leaders and they are just mere followers, with tendency to be manipulated.
Call me dirty minded, but it is very much true from Catholic religion to other religions it has turned into business and how to form an isolationist, elite fun club.
.....One of the hallmarks of every cult is its propensity to gather closely around a leader and to elevate that leader to a kind of kingly status both in their minds, and in their treatment of this leader......
Another wrong thing, have you seen the church has been so... we love our Dear Pastor!.....we so love our Dear Parish Priest....but what if Jesus said ....ahem, ahem, excuse me..... the church is about ME not about them.....Though it is not bad to show respect in them; making them the whole point of worship is something wrong.
Little did members know they already replaced Jesus with how they revered and support their leaders while leaders feeling they are such an "absolute person" and such a highly respected leader but does not know how to relate to common members and shows favor only to those elite members who can donate lots of cash and is socialite in the society.
........A religious cult is simply an organization, the members of which have been covertly manipulated and overtly coerced into stuffing virtually all of their lives into the church-box....
Finally the greatest problem with chruch and religiosity is that they do separate spirituality with secular life. They equate being righteous, holy, and perfect based on their roles in the church. You are a true follower of Christ if you can preach well in the pulpit, song lead well, teach well. How about those who are not good at it, should they be condemned? How about me, I have stage fright and not good at public speaking, does it mean I can not be a follower of Christ? Does God bless only those who preach well?
They think every good things should be done in the parameters of Christian church. How about those non-religious organizations who are doing social work for the government aren’t they spiritual too? Is scrubbing the floor or your toilet, not spiritual too?
Aside from that they are separating spirituality vs. Secular life , they also separate public performances vs. Private life.
The real challenge for Christianity is not how well performer you are inside the church where the public can see you. After they speak and perform they receive their rewards from the applause of audience.
Even other aspect of your life is being checked by God and even the private thoughts, private conversations are monitored.
I so believed, God sees a lot of hypocrisy in church-21st century Pharisees for this time. Because of how many religious people box themselves in church when they follow God, everyone is just starting to fake everything.
Sorry but I know I cannot save myself alone but I believe even the church cannot save me after so many things I see wrong with it, the only chance left for me to be save is to trust Jesus and be more secular not religious.
Actually, it can be effortless now, as Jesus do most of the job and we no longer have to work hard for our salvation. IT is FINISHED! All we need to do is to help ourselves not to be corrupted in every way we can and look for a chance to serve even outside church parameters those people in need- support a charity, donate to a disaster victims, visit orphanages, pray for elderly.
If God has a tally sheet of what we are doing, he may based our salvation on religiosity as 10% only and the others 90% is outside of church or in non-religious, private, non-formal part of our daily lives.
Therefore I made a final decision, I strongly believe being a church fanatic and religious fanatic does not save at all. I hate organized church, I hate religions but I have faith to believe....