30 Day Fast Food Diet Challenge - Day 19

Is losing weight enough? I’ve lost weight. I hope I’m showing people they can make the necessary changes and lose weight rather easily. But, I always make it a point to tell people weight loss means a lot more. When you go through battles of not being able to lose weight, always gaining it back, anorexia, bulimia, people putting you down, not feeling good about yourself, etc., it shapes you in so many ways. A past and present like that, can have a lasting impression. Where’s my head at on day 19?

I’ve never been a quitter. When I start something, if it has a good intention, I’m going to follow through with it. I believe this challenge can do some good. But, it’s day 19. What’s changing? I know that for someone who’s in dire need of improving their diet and losing weight, this diet is a positive step for them. For me, after coming so far in my weight loss, and after 19 days of this, I know I’m ready for more improvement. After 19 days, it’s not good enough or right for me anymore. I’m still going to complete the 30 days, but I’m already looking forward to what’s next.

Taking the process further.

People are going to take the weight loss process as far as they want. Where I may be heading, may seem crazy to you. I may be able to handle further changes, while you won’t. I don’t know what stops some people from being able to take things further, maybe it’s readiness. Maybe things need to get worse? Maybe it has to do with how frustrated we get, when we can’t attain something we’re hoping for.

What am I hoping for?

There’s this level of health that I want to reach. Do I know the feeling yet? No. But, I know there must be more. For so long, I used to say, “weight loss comes from the inside out,” and it’s true. But, I meant it in the sense of how we feel emotionally, how much we believe in ourselves, where we get the fight to push ourselves, the motivation, etc. How we build ourselves up matters to our weight loss. Of course, we need the knowledge to do it too. But, we need to fix so much more in our lives. How we live each day effects our weight. So by dealing with our issues that effect us, impact our lives and feelings, we can much easier lose weight and find the success that eludes most people. Conquering our weight issues are very important to our weight loss. How and where we live, our environment, our work, our choices, our relationships, can all have negative effects on us. It takes a lot of work to improve our lives collectively. It’s something that needs to be done. I’ve done it. I’m in probably the “best place,” I’ve ever been. Emotionally and how I’m feeling about myself, has never been better. I have control of my eating, I’m accomplishing and feeling good about my goals, and I’m planning future ideas. On the inside emotionally, strength wise and with my determination, that best place is solid. But there’s also another place that’s just as important. That place is the gastrointestinal track. We don’t often think about its health and it’s importance to our health or our digestion. It’s making most people sick, and they don’t even know it. I believe by not being clean enough on the inside, it’s stopping me from achieving what I need to feel even better. Cleaning out my intestines and colon, is my next step.

There’s a time in the weight loss process, where we change. Everything seems to change. Our priorities, perhaps our relationships, how we view the world, how we give to others changes, and we’re willing to take a chance and go out on a limb and try something new. We seek a feeling, maybe the best place where we can feel as complete as possible. You begin to know the difference between what health feels like and what doesn’t. And, you’ll be more open to try new things. You may have even laughed at something or someone at one time for trying something, like yoga, and now it may be right for you. We could all use to be more open to new ways and ideas, especially if they have the potential to bring something positive to our lives, our health, to lower our stress levels, etc.

I’m aware of the importance of our elimination. We also need to be able to absorb the nutrients we take in. Millions of people aren’t doing this. Millions of people are walking around feeling bad. I’ve lost weight, I’ve worked on my issues, and that’s done a lot, but it hasn’t done enough. What good is looking good on the outside, if I have pounds of undigested food and fecal matter sticking to me on the inside? That’s not going to make any of us feel good. So though I’ve done very well, I’m ready for the next step: cleaning out. I didn’t plan this. Fasting is something I’ve tried in the past, but it was weight loss motivated. This is not about weight loss. It’s about feeling good, and finding what’s right for me. I believe this journey never ends, but it’s surprising when we arrive into new unexpected territory. When we grow in such great ways, you never know the new things and ways you’d adopt. Life’s going great, I look good, but I don’t feel as good physically as I thought I would by now. I feel a few aches, I’m not eliminating as I should, and my energy could be better. There’s more work I need to do, and working on this is my next priority.

Today’s menu:

* McDonald’s scrambled egg & 1 sausage pattie
* 1 small peach
* 1 McDonalds grilled chicken honey mustard snack wrap w/ 1 & ½ cups of gilled zucchini
* 1 cup of red grapes
* 1 McDonalds grilled chicken chipotle snack wrap w/ 1 & ½ cup grilled zucchini
* ½ cup of blueberries
* ½ cup of blueberries w/ cool whip & 2 Lorna Doone cookies

Today I didn’t workout at all. I took a complete rest day. My body is feeling some aches and it felt like a good day to take off and try to heal up. I don’t do this often, but it’s something we need now and then.

See also:

-  30 Day Fast Food Diet Challenge - Day 1

-  Weight Loss Series: What Kind of Weight Loss Plan Really Works - Day 45

- Weight Loss Series: Having An Unsupportive Family - Day 39